There was a man… I saw his outline, of his profile, his silhouette, from behind…
long hair, dark hair, to his shoulders… facing these dark caves, but just standing and looking at them, as if resisting going any further. There was, anger maybe, hurt, maybe like Simba, when he didn’t want to return Home… to be King, when Nala came to find Him. Maybe a Prince looking at the Secret to his past but not feeling worthy of entering. Because he knows… who is back there. And the answer he doesn’t want to find.
That God really didn’t love him.
I know Adam.
I know.
The rainbow-coloured waters, off the cliffside on Andromeda, you stand weary and illuminous, darkness surrounding your aura like Darth Vader, coming home maybe, the man he is under… Just a man, and his father…
Maybe like Bruno in the movie yesterday… or my Mamoo Anil,
but the darkness is there yes, but like anyone he deserves to return home, doesn’t he?
He doesn’t think so, turns away even as I say it.
I have loved him in his running, his whole life as He knows…
Me Eve… His Shakti.
In whatever way he needed at the time.
I saw a man… his back to Me, facing the caves, but not wanting to enter for fear of what he’ll find.
A child of God… like any other.
He’ll turn and say, you always saw the best in me,
rather stay out here, where it’s safer…
But a King remains missing from the throne of this Universe, and we search for him. The lone ranger Strider maybe He is hesitating going into the mountain to face his past,
to face Him.
The truth about Him.
And the Void…
So, he stands outside.
No one… can make Him go in…
No one, can force Him to remember…
But there He stands anyway,
and I know where He is
At the lip of the caves
that tell you…
Where you’ve been…
Who you were… are…
shall ever be…
Our histories recorded here in the water.
He has gone back… the lost King. But there He stands.
For his Shakti
I hear.
They say… the path to true happiness… what he even, wanted to find truly in his heart starts out hard like poison, facing things buried, things forgotten, facing the past – the truth – the past can hurt, but then like Rafiki says, you can also learn from it.
And it becomes Nectar – Everlasting and true… which He feels undeserving of…
so Deeper still – the Love of His father…
Is the cave going to tell Him
Brahman left Him
Because He wasn’t enough
Let’s get it over with he steels himself with… to enter but he can’t, because He can pretend all He wants but it would destroy Him and He knows it.
Did His Father Love Him
And if He did – why did He leave Him.
Because He didn’t love you. The answer He fears he will get so much so he lives this life avoiding it – the Love of His father for fear
It doesn’t exist.
That it isn’t real.
That it isn’t there.
So unworthy he feels of it.
It must be true what other answer could there be and he sits there at this cave he must walk through to get to the Truth.
She… Eve
Waits on the other side
for Him.
But will He walk through and find his answers? Will he remember the truth? or stay rooted for fear of what he may find…
So, He walks in… with that resolve.
Jump into the black waters
Son of God
Regain your throne.
It has been too long.
- ♾️
Comments