Silence

That’s how I would have described the Seas, back then.

I’d jump in from the cliff tops, soaring and gliding right into the Sea, or even just walk from the pure white sand beaches until I was deep enough to submerge past the reef.

We could breathe under water as well. 

It was a trait of royalty.  So we could supervise the land, the air and the seas.  All was part of our duty, Ordained by Him

The Master of them all.

Brahman.

So we would fly, run or swim through the Worlds greeting all we met along the way as we explored the Garden of Delights – this Kingdom.

This writing in particular… is about the Sea.

Silent.

And blue

is what I remember.

Sunlight shining down through the waves from the surface, rippling through the sparkling waters as deep as the light would go.

So many creatures up here, especially.  The whales and the dolphins – breaking the silence with their chattering or their songs of old…about the birth of creation, calling to one another.  Using that same ancient vibration of sound through the water. 

They were my most favourite friends.

The sea turtles as well, always catching the current and swimming by the coastal reefs.  The babies were the cutest… and the little sea horses… and all the colourful fishes.

The Octopus, I’d stay away from.

There was something eery about them in the darker mist… but they’d bow as well whenever I passed by.

Silence.

Retreat.

This is what I went for.  When I went to the Sea.

You would go with me, and we’d swim together to the Kingdoms under the Sea, with all the Mer people and extraordinary beasts… who were described in Atlantean legends.  Yes, they were real.

King Triton – who other than Shiva himself.  Beside Me.

My favourite was how the water felt through my fingers.

With the sunlight glittering through.

Waving my hands about in the water… it reminded me of who I was.

It made me feel like I was Free.

We were exploring the Atlantic ridge.  A great darkness was being sensed coming up from its depths.  Something corrupting the water.

Its life.

Tainted… a depth of density we hadn’t felt before.  Affecting their minds.

We decided to go ourselves.  Being able to see in the dark with our eyes, so we were blessed whether on sea, land or shore or sky.

This was our role, our duty.

To see, what needed to be seen and bring it to Light.  So the Divine Will had ordained on us as Keepers of the Night.  And Bringers of the Light.

Balance… had to be maintained, no matter what.  And something in the planet was off.

In the depths of the Ocean, it began.

A shadow.

You held my hand as I found it harder to submerge further.  The density causing me to feel emotions I hadn’t ever felt before – fear, discomfort, an unsettled nature, I couldn’t put my finger on it, but feeling something was wrong.

Most of all,

I couldn’t hear the Song of the Sea.

I started to panic.

Feeling I couldn’t breathe.

Darkness, waves crushing over me and I began to kick and scream.

They’re coming for Me.

I can’t feel the Light.

I can’t hear His Song.

I am drowning, I can’t feel the Light.  Get me out, and I screamed in a way I never had before.

And you just looked at me.  With compassion in your soft grey-blue eyes, so much like the sea you were in incarnate form.  Just as soothing, just as calming, just as full of depth and grace and wisdom of the ages, just as compassionate, bending, moving, holding all – giving space to all that enters it.  Forming around them, giving them what they each need no matter the shape or size – that was You. 

My King of the Sea.

You came in the middle of the thrashing, of the suffocating and you put your hands on either side of my head.  And put your forehead to mine.

In the midst of the chaos around us.

The darkness.

There was You and I.

I love you.

You said.

Shanti, back then… I love you.

And in that darkness.

In that midnight depth.

I began to glow – the Light began to shine from the inside out. 

And I,

became the Light.

I was the Light, but it was you

you sparked it.

You and I.

To answer my own question.

How to do it

How to remain my Self, in the dark

centred, calm, no matter what.

Our Love.

It was You and I – in the darkest of places, the darkest depths,

we could achieve anything.

Because the secret is this,

Together,

We are the Light.

-       SDS ♾️