Eve

Where do I go… when I run?

Somewhere… where I am not my Self.

Because I learned to be my Self

was wrong.  Was bad.

Where do I go when I run…

Away from my Self.

Lest I should make some mistake I regret.

I go far away, from my Self.

Hide in the dark…

Where He can’t find Me.

I am Eve.

How will I know I won’t make the same mistake again – when I was just being

Me?

There is one doorway – to everything I love.

Everyone I love.

Everything that was – everyone – that has ever meant anything to me.

I’m not going to let you run and

I know

who he’s letting.

One doorway back to life

and it, is Him.

He’s blocked all the exits.

And they let him – because

they love Me.

He blocks Dharma even – cruel has a different definition when it comes to this because I would call this

Compassion.

Me.

Eve.

Where do I go.

When I run.

And did I hope this may be it

Maybe.  I did.

Because if it’s Me, I’m going to mess it up.

I am Eve.

I don’t know

Any other way

To be. – But Me.

I run… but he won’t let me.

That is probably… In all of this

My Only Hope

that he believes, enough in me that he says I won’t mess it up because he chooses Me.

He smokes me out.

He pushes me to love my self.

To return – to Me.

I have to believe it means,

I’m good enough.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry to everyone.

I learned I was wrong for being Me.

And I can’t come to terms with it.

Just yet.

Only he… holds the key to that.

I will do as he says.

Once he says I am good enough

I must be.

If he says.

It’s the only thing I really trust.

So if he trusts me

I trust my Self.

I am sorry.

I am Eve. – Shanti. ♾️

At least I know

He’s coming for me

For I have

lost myself

in all the pain

He reminds

Me.

-       Eve ♾️

If the world,

goes into darkness

Who is it but you?

If the world

comes into Light

who but you again?

Mother of the World

It isn’t wrong

to be in the

dark.

It is only wrong to not be your

Self.

You will see it.

One day. –  Us both